Stalked by the Stork...a diary of raising twelve kids

Having twelve children is an amazing blessing and one heck of a crazy ride. Join us through all the joys, smiles, tribulations and trials as we navigate this fabulous journey!

Tuesday, March 4, 2008

"Isn't it about time?"

Brandon comes into the nursery and finds me rocking Sydney to sleep. He stands there for a long moment, almost like he's uncomfortable or needs to say something but isn't sure where to start. After a few seconds, he reaches out and touches Sydney's hand and remarks,
"Isn't it time for you to have another baby Mom? You know, cause you have to get my match. You're still gonna do it, right?"
"Yes, Brandon" I tell him. "I know its almost time. And yes, we'll get your match." Then I tell him how well he's doing and how I'm quite positive he doesn't even really need a match anymore because he's doing so great. I tell him that next year at this time when he weans off of his medicine he won't relapse and thus he'll never need the theoretical transplant that has loomed in the back of all of our minds for almost three years now. But he's not dumb...and at 8 years old, he's able to figure out things a little quicker than he could at 5. After watching so many pregnancies, he knows full well that the year it will take him to wean from the medicine will be just enough time for another shot at making that elusive match. And thus, I suppose he's wondering why we're not jumping back in the saddle (no pun intended...don't even laugh Debi!)
I start to wonder if he realizes the toll these pregnancies with only a few months in between take on my body...or the financial stress a family this large brings to his Dad. But those thoughts only last a moment. I think about how important his match is to me...and I wonder, what must it feel like to him??? I know how I feel waiting to hear if each baby is a match...and the heaviness and fear and desperation I feel when we learn that each one is not, must that feel to him? I then realize that indeed, I hope he never thinks about the toll on my body or the stress on his Dad because all of that must be nothing compared to the stress on him. He just needs to know that he's okay. And after this is all said and done one day...when we finally do have that match, I can't wait to tell him how amazing it is that in the process of such a difficult and heartwrenching journey, we were lucky enough to be blessed over and over again. That the very thing that brought us the lowest lows of our lives is the same thing that is responsibe for the greatest joys we could imagine. And that God has been so faithful to us and that the evidence of that is right inside our home each night when we lock our doors. We pray and plead with God each and every time to give us a match...and yet at the same time...if one of our boys had matched...we wouldn't have had our twins. If one of the twins had matched, we wouldn't have had Sydney. And now we have these amazing children and Brandon is still well. So, perhaps God knows what he's doing. Maybe its us that needs more faith in him and we should trust in the knowledge that God will deliver our match to us when he is ready and that it will come when it comes. Of course, I'd prefer that to be on the sooner side (as in the next child rather than 4 or 5 children from now) One thing is for sure, I am definatley acutely aware now of how much control I don't have! So, we will wait on Him.
Going downstairs now for a peice of Red Velvet cake. Tomorrow we are starting a healthier lifestyle...meaning nutritious food and its my last chance for cake!
This is why neither of us can loose any weight...we keep eating each day like its our last meal! So unhealthy...


Debbie Moore said...

You are an amazing woman! That post had me in tears, happy and sad. You outlook it so positive, it is so great! And if you did not have the twins I would never know you and that is a positive for me! You are an inspiration for all Mothers out there!

Nana said...

You truly leave me speechless. Just as you have been blessed, I have been blessed.


albert & angela fontenot said...

I love you too. And Ashley...and even Katie and Dad (ha ha)

Anonymous said...

hi ang and albert and kids,
auntie ev just sent me your new website and i have spent the past hour (hmmm probably should have been working- but it's just a school internship!) reading and catching up on your lives! angela, i have no idea how you do this and this post especially reminded me of how amazing you are (something i always knew)! i hope to come visit you guys again soon because it has been too long and i have yet to meet your newest three additions =) we (uncle bob, auntie p, nick, and i) are sending all our love and prayers to everyone! love you, ALI

TONYA said...

Ang honey, you are truly an inspiration, Brandon is so lucky to have you and Al as his parents. Give that little man an extra hug from Auntie T today.

Love the smileboxes of Zoe and the kids :)

Jenn H said...

Oh Angela, you yet again amaze me and humble me. I don't think anything more beautiful or poignant has ever been written. You are all in my prayers!!

Lynn said...

It's in the Lord's Hands!
We always left how many kids we had in the Lord's Hands. Of course we never needed to have one of the kids match...

The Romero-Schroeder said...

Oh My after reading this i´m speachless and Thank you for being so strong, you both are wonderful people and God knows that for sure!. Brandon is such a barve little boy, i can tell you for sure that he will do great things in life!

BoufMom9 said...

You thought I was going to be laughing? Oh Ang. I am crying my eyes out. My heart just aches for you, Albert & Brandon. I just know that God will answer your prayers. I know it!

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